I wanted to thank all of this magazine's readers over the years of this Internet publication. I have enjoyed working with some incredible indie entertainers and presenting their stories to the readers. I wanted, very much, to express my sincere words of appreciation for those of this magazine's readers who offered their condolences after learning of the death of my mother. I am not sure how to think or where I should go after experiencing such an extraordinary life loss.
My mom, for those who do not know the story, was diagnosed with liver cancer. She died on July 10, 2011; a day that will haunt me to the time I leave this world myself. It is funny speaking about my mom's death when the doctors announced that she had liver cancer only three weeks earlier. I just knew that my sister and I would have enough time to spend more quality times with my mother. Little did I or my sister knew that time was the biggest enemy. My mom only had two children, myself and my little sister (Tina). We are around a year and ten months apart. My mom and dad were divorced when we were kids; yet, my dad remained close to my mom's parents (my grandparents) over the years. My dad's parents died before either my sister or I was born so I only knew of one set of grandparents. It is also funny to speak of my mom's death especially when her parents (my grandparents) are alive and doing so well. My grandfather not so proficient in health but at least he is still alive.
When I learned of my mom's death, disbelief went running through my head. I was in shock and felt a sense of betrayal and anger towards GOD for taking my mom away from us. I was angrier with myself knowing that I did not over the years live up to being the best son to my mom. One thinks that his or her mother or father will live forever and when death occurs EVERYTHING changes. The worst part of my mom's death is the guilt. I also believe I am not a whole person. I believe also that I certainly did not fight for my mom. I am not going to disclose any personal issues she had with her current husband (my step-dad), but I feel as if I should have come forward long before my mom becoming sick. There were signs that my mom was getting sick & tired but I feel as if not only me, but the whole family ignored them.
I feel as if my family and I killed my mom. We demanded and demanded on her and did not give a damn about my mom's own health until it was too late. This is the guilt that I must now live with for the rest of my life, and it is killing me every time. I feel hopeless and unworthy of life. I feel as if my mom went to her grave depressed and in pain. This is what I have been wrestling with for the past few months. I also feel as if I needed to abandon everything and do nothing. However, this is not what my mother would like for me to do I am sure of it. I am finding a way to go on and make my mom proud of me. And the one way to do this is by re-dedicating my commitment to Junior's Cave Golden Isles Online Magazine.
I am committed to making this one of the best Indie Entertainment Magazine on the Web. I am also committed to making this magazine something that my mom will smile about from heaven. 2012 is my year folks and I have my own special angel (my mom) making sure that this Webzine is successful.
We are excited over here at Junior's Cave to hear about the return of Paula Abdul. Our publication is a huge fan of Ms. Abdul and wanted to share this exciting news with the readers of this publication. Abdul is returning to her roots as she is teaming up with Reveille Productions in an exclusive project to produce an ALL NEW dance show that is scheduled to air on CBS!
At this very moment, Abdul and her team are searching across the country in hopes to find dancers of all dance styles to be featured on the new show. One of the best and coolest parts to this search is that Abdul is looking for dancers who possess a unique dancing quality but still are full of talent and creativity. She is looking for dancers in the form of Solos, Duos, Trios & Groups; it doesn't matter about style or age (all types are welcome). If you think you have what it takes to be a part of this new show, make sure to check out how you can become a part of Abdul's new CBS series by clicking on this link below:
As I am locating a parking space this Sunday Fourth of July morning at Wal-Mart today, I begin to ponder the idea of what does it mean to be a family. The very definition of family signals debate. Two web definitions define family as all the members of a household living under one roof or a group of persons who shares common ancestry (The American Heritage, 2010). But, family can mean lot more than just people who share common DNA together or live under one roof.
I believe family is that person or persons that you feel closeness to and no matter what...you know that this person is someone you can depend on regardless of the circumstances. Is that not what one can say is the true meaning of family? I know I can depend on my family members whenever I need them. And that gives me comfort to know that I have someone who is championing for me to do well in life. What are your thoughts on what makes a family? I would love to hear from our readers of this Webzine.
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I also would like to wish everyone a Happy Fourth of July!!
Works Cited:
"family." The American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition. Houghton Mifflin Company, 2004. Answers.com 05 Jul. 2010. http://www.answers.com/topic/family
